“The key to truly relishing a moment is not to concern one’s Ego with how you may appear to the casual observer…”
|Skeptical Faerie, or something.|
Especially if you are dressed like a Sugar Plum Fairy.
One of my cherished like-mindeds had reminded me that I said that once. Today I would like to add a clarification.
And don't wait until a new, more comfortable or convenient moment arrives. Do it now.
Dance seems to be my Great Teacher in this.
Dance. Don't Think. Especially about other folks -- human or otherwise -- who may be watching (or not, because it IS a bit narcissistic to assume folks are watching you all the time).
"A chaotic mind in a body that has been forced into some extreme arrangement is pointless. So though I know I'm never going to be very physically adept at shaping my body into beautiful and graceful asana, I enjoy the mind-body work and seeing its benefits manifesting elsewhere in my life." --AB
When we are preoccupied with trying to be something impressive to the external eye, we are chaotic. When we are busy berating ourselves for our imperfections, obsessing over shortcomings that others may or may not perceive or doubting our likability we are chaotic. When we are fraught with shyness & self-conscious thoughts, we are chaotic.
There is no doorway to ecstasy, no tapping the spirit world, no Tarab to be found in this ego-driven, self-limiting chaos of the mind. This is not the road to "seeing (your practice's) benefits manifesting elsewhere in (your) life." The key to growth, to freedom lies elsewhere.
I am a chaos-rider. I admit it. But I must emphasize: choose your chaos wisely & make sure you're the rider, not the horse.
The maenads were expert chaos riders. Do you think that in their ecstasis, even for a single moment, they considered what other folks thought about how they looked?
|Dance, my teacher. Maenad as well, perhaps. |
A moment of Tarab courtesy Joana Saahirah Facebook page.