But back to my Secret Garden.
I have been keeping my own personal "Secret Garden" to myself like a greedy thing. I read it every night before bed & I didn't want to share it with anyone except Hubby & only because he sleeps next to me. He kept reading it over my shoulder because he secretly loves it too & besides, someone had to keep me from reading/peeking ahead.
I read it from beginning to end & after a month or two of reading one entry, maybe two a night, I finished it. I was so moved, so stirred by this story, that I had to tell the author(s). Serendipitously, they were reading my story & had written me first. This is my reply. I think I could not express myself any better now, than I did when I wrote it for them (in the throngs of my admiration):
I have been doing my best (children allowing) to read a wee bit of your blog every night. It is the last thing I do before I sleep. The way you describe your rituals, your memories, is the perfect way to enter the dream world. I want to thank you for inviting me into your home, sharing your family & your grove with me. My husband & I (if he can stay awake long enough) lay in bed w/the laptop & read it together -- it is like taking a little trip to upstate New York every night & spending time with the most delightful hosts. Of course, he has to remind me not to read ahead, peek at the pictures, etc.
I am wondering what I will do when I have read it all? Do you ever have that concern when reading a marvelous book? Perhaps you take extra time to read it, savouring it, dragging it on & on, because you cannot bear the thought of its conclusion? Luckily, I know your blog will continue, a little at a time. I will just have to find the patience.
Thank you for writing to me. As it happens, I have been meaning to write to you, to thank you for writing the best blog I have ever read. Ever. (Not that I am all that versed in the blogosphere, but nothing thus far has resonated so well for me.) Your words & photos are beautiful & I relish them...
The letter continues from there. I discuss my possessiveness towards my "secret" (my "precious"?) & later I request permission to share &/or write about my newfound source of bliss.
After this heartwarming exchange, I kept reading. Then, after I finished, I took a baby step & shared my secret with a special friend -- someone I knew would understand. BUT, I made her promise she would read it from beginning to end. No peeking.
This is a very intimate, deeply spiritual story about a family of Druids honouring the gods. They are also artists, poets, wordsmiths. They have a grove, it changes over time, people move, people die, new folks join them, the Wheel turns. Her voice is sublime, the way she describes their rituals, memories, the sadness & hilarity of life, family & worship. I am not a Druid & I confess (as my friends will tell you) that I have a difficult time wrapping my feral brain around the Druidic cosmology, liturgy, philosophy... all of it. But I loved every single chapter of their Druidic story & I got it. I got it.
The joy I received when I shared this story with my friend was so epic that I could not focus during my meditation at the Night Altar & this elation remained with me for days. Just knowing my friend was reveling in the beauty of this precious secret filled me with warm-fuzzies.
If you had any doubts, she loves it too. Her words: " ...holey moley I am in awe."
The words & inspiration continue to reverberate. Hubby has been designing a special circle for us in the pasture (to the East, the home of Breakfast Canyon) using earth, stone & wood. His ideas are much inspired by the designs found at our Secret Garden: Our Whole Grove's Mountaintop Underground. I continue to revel, reflect & await the forthcoming chapters. Now I understand what all those Harry Potter fans felt as they waited for their beloved tale to continue.
Go read it. I'll still be here prattling away to myself when you return. But remember, read it from beginning to end. In that order. No peeking. It is a wonderful journey.
"We are here to honor the gods, gods who give meaning to life."
-- Our Whole Grove