tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5807299091001611550.post1508764860517549639..comments2023-11-07T23:58:28.619-09:00Comments on Pray to the Moon: On Seeing. (Microcosm/Macrocosm. Self/Universe.) Moma Faunahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13656419605056782629noreply@blogger.comBlogger4125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5807299091001611550.post-26677707733225592372016-03-04T09:10:16.677-09:002016-03-04T09:10:16.677-09:00Heather,
It is so interesting that you say this b...Heather,<br /><br />It is so interesting that you say this because I couldnt help but think of you as I wrote it. Everything you just said went through my mind. It is all in the present understanding and living in the body. Not always the simplest task. Moma Faunahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13656419605056782629noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5807299091001611550.post-89594819030672625472016-03-04T09:05:33.832-09:002016-03-04T09:05:33.832-09:00Yes. I have been on a very steep learning curve of...Yes. I have been on a very steep learning curve of late -- many lessons in how useless or even disastrous words can be sometimes.<br />And as I sit here listening to these heartfelt songs sung in Arabic -- a language I do not speak, but with which I dance -- I realize how much the dance, the music, all of it, is indeed a part of the praxis.Moma Faunahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13656419605056782629noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5807299091001611550.post-43519464953467332052016-02-29T10:43:06.942-09:002016-02-29T10:43:06.942-09:00A perfect summation of some of our recent discussi...A perfect summation of some of our recent discussions. And your title is very apposite: seeing the pictures I really got so much closer to understanding what dancing is to you and your praxis. <br /><br />I've been pondering this 'speaking without words' thing a lot today since the gift of a treasured heirloom to a friend finally 'spoke' words I had been unable to find and cleared a new channel in the silted estuary of an old and precious friendship.ANhttp://theopengyre.tumblr.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5807299091001611550.post-27664606801675055922016-02-28T19:22:24.151-09:002016-02-28T19:22:24.151-09:00Hey there, those photos! You look so beautiful! Yo...Hey there, those photos! You look so beautiful! You are a dancer! <br /><br /> That's the exact same message that when you have chronic illness or get a disability you also have to really master . With the lime disease I can't predict what symptoms will happen when and right now I'm having a really bad Babesiosis flare up, that's the one that's almost exactly malaria and literally wants to kill me . It's scary because every hour my fever changes . The symptoms are so severe for a few hours and then there more like having a really bad flu version of the symptoms and then it's super scary when I can't even control anything in my body . The everyday stuff with chronic Lyme disease , it's having to be aware of where the infections and inflammation are active for that week or so and adjust everything around that and then when they changed just everything again . <br /><br /> There is this frustration sometimes where my mind really wants to be able to do something like be able to read or I want to be safe taking a shower and my body refuses . The limitations can be really hard because there's no way to plan anything and there is such an intense powerlessness , especially knowing that you have parasites deciding your body and your emotions and your ability to think . The awareness of sharing your body with living organisms who have their own agenda which completely annihilates you , it feels like some science-fiction movies sometimes .<br /><br /> But it really forces you to be mindful . You have to be aware of what your body can do at this moment while also being aware that you cannot predict anything about the future . Doing pagan prison ministry through the post , it's really good that Donna understands I don't have much control over when I can do things and that the women in the prison know that too . In so many ways I have a lot in common with people in prison because of multiple chemical sensitivity , there is very little choice in my life . The one pair of pants that don't make me sick and fit well they stopped making . When you only have one pair of pants that you can wear that is a crisis . Plus there's so much grief about having lost everything , and sometimes it's the free will of food like I can only eat for different things , nothing else , and I don't usually crave things because I know how sick they will make me I miss having options . <br /><br /> But yeah I totally understand what your dance teacher says because it's the hardest thing I had to learn with the tickborne illnesses especially the 6 1/2 years when I didn't know that's what it was , that there was no " normal " anymore , my body changed every few hours sometimes with what I could do including if I could even be awake . <br /><br />Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14245308223722620430noreply@blogger.com